Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Somewhere In My Broken Heart


The greatest threat of injury we face in this life comes not at the hand of our enemy, but from the the hand of the one who claims they love us.

Our greatest pain comes from one who was thought to be the greatest source of comfort. The circle of love has always been an exhilarating ride that, inevitably, plunges many into the shear depths of heartbreak and hell. I admire those who have been dealt kindly in this regard ... they are the lucky ones.

Love places us at great, grave risk. The one we love has a harsh, powerful and deadly weapon at their disposal ... the ability to simply change their mind. The loss of love is our most cruel of all pains, because it is often done at the hand of one we loved, needed and trusted the most. Don't ever take for granted that the person you have deep affection for will be there tomorrow ... the first step for total loss is often complete confidence. And trust.

There is no shield for this. No defense. No protection. No warning. We can accomplish many things in this life except for one basic fact: we can not change anybody's mind about anything. This is something they have to do themselves.

And so Billy Dean came on WoodSongs this past Monday night, carrying in his work-bag of songs and stories probably the most honest and devastating song about loss in recent country music history. "Somewhere In My Broken Heart" was a huge, heartbreaking ballad of intense personal devastation and it rocketed to the top of the charts and helped Billy sell over 4 million albums. He co-wrote it with the great songwriter Richard Leigh, who joined Billy on stage Monday night.

And as they sang the song during the show ... Billy is a fine singer and a talented and rich guitarist as well ... I couldn't help but reflect back to losses and love lost. Even my own. The song connects because so many have felt this emotional knife plunge deep into our souls at the hand of one we trusted and needed the most.

And, my, how the walls of an empty home can thunder in a tsunami of dark stillness at four in the morning ... I encourage anyone who has felt the stunning silence of someone you love drifting away from you to check out the song on YouTube. Here's a link:

This clip is the music video of the song, filmed back when a music video was about the song and not just a blatant marketing vehicle to sell product. I wish record companies got it through their head that the audience only cares about the song, not the marketing plan. Oh, well.

So, a tip of the glass to all on the mend, to any who have carried the weight of someone leaving, to those who have felt the coldness of a steal blade piercing through their soul as the one you love gives up ... and walks away.

I've been off the blogging effort for a while. It's been an unusual and busy four months, to say the least. I've been traveling a lot, working on the new Ravenwood CD, working on the Caney Creek motion picture, Walden is still being shown on PBS stations and it is now released on DVD, WoodSongs has had several special event shows, two kids ... you get the idea.

Next week, a double broadcast event with Sam Bush ... and for the first time in our show's history, I will have a co-host on a broadcast. Thanks for listening and supporting WoodSongs!



Kim Thomas said...

You otter blog more often, MJ. It's a commitment, though, blogging is.

I like to say blogging is like having a pet rock that cries. You can ignore it, sure, coz it's just a rock, after all...but after a few days, it begins to cry, as something within me says I have to feed it, comfort it, attend to it.

I say all that to say this: I like it when you blog...keep it up :)

Anonymous said...

The whole somewhere in my broken heart song is a little desperate...okay... a lot... there are 2 sides to every song so GET A GRIP!! It's soooo ridiculous! Whining like a little girl is soooo immature ! Get over it and grow up!!

ANAM CARA said...


It is great to see you writing again. Your blog is always insightful and meaningful.Thank you for taking the time to share.

Your thoughts abour Billy Dean's song resonate within my heart. I too have experieced the heartach and brokenenss of a failed love. And YES, you are so right! You can't change anothers heart.You can only change yourself.

Anonymous, guess you have been spared the kind of heatache Michael speaks of and Billy sang about, otherwise, I'm sure you would not be so quick to criticize anyone else.

Words from the poet and author John O'Donohue, on the breakup of a relationship, come to my mind.
"Love can seldom end clean;For all the tissue is torn and each lover turned stranger is dropped into a ruin of distance where emptiness is young and fierce."
"Unknow to themselves,certain small things touch nerve-lines to the heart and bring back with color and force all that is utterly lost."
"If you remain generous, time will come good;and you will find your feet again on fresh pastures of promise, where the air will be kind and blushed with beginning."

Michael to you and all who have suffered the loss of love,I wish for a day when our heart's will reveal the destination of our desires.And,we find ourselves being loved by the one's we love and long for.

Peace and blessings,

Anam Cara

Anonymous said...

Interesting....I was the director of the "Somewhere in my Broken Heart" music video. We shot the beach scenes on the first day just west of Galveston and the weather was can see the high wind and brief showers in the scenes of the couple together...the next day and night shots were scheduled in Downtown Houston with the night scenes in the Houston House high-rise. Miraculously the weather cleared and we were left with a beautiful evening for the dramatic release of the model plane that Billy had saved - the release that allowed him to move on. I'm proud of our work together. Billy Dean is a true gentleman a huge talent and I loved working with him. Bill Young